[ That's potentially one of the nicer things that Dean has said to him and that little part of him that he'd like to pretend wasn't changed by all that blood soaks in what apparently passes for camaraderie these days. ]

I would be human, Dean.

[ A miserable, broken, guilt-ridden human. ]

And you're the one who didn't want Sam knowing where you were. Nothing is stopping you from calling him except you.